Saturday, February 27, 2010

20 Weeks and Thirteen Pounds Later~

Here we are. We have hit our 20th week mark.

I feel great. In fact there are days I almost forget I'm pregnant, but then I see my belly and I'm happily reminded.

I have gained 13 pounds, which I am very happy with. Very different from Cole. Then again, I'm not eating taco bell everyday!
Its more pickles, fruit, milk, and salami sandwiches I crave these days!

Paul was able to feel her for the first time yesterday morning. Her kicks are getting stronger by the day. I know it will only be a matter of time before the rolls and movements will be able to be seen.

Here is a physical update on her approximate progress.

Your baby weighs about 10 1/2 ounces now. He's also around 6 1/2 inches long from head to bottom and about 10 inches from head to heel — the length of a banana. (For the first 20 weeks, when a baby's legs are curled up against his torso and hard to measure, measurements are taken from the top of his head to his bottom — the "crown to rump" measurement. After 20 weeks, he's measured from head to toe.)

He's swallowing more these days, which is good practice for his digestive system.

He's also producing meconium, a black, sticky by-product of digestion. This gooey substance will accumulate in his bowels, and you'll see it in his first soiled diaper (some babies pass meconium in the womb or during delivery).

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Is There a Medication for Crazy?

I remember feeling so anxious for Cole's arrival.

" Who is he going to look like? "

" What is going to look like?"

" What kind of Mom will I be?"

" How is he going to smell? "

" Will he be a picky eater?"

" Will I have trouble breast feeding?"

" Are our lives over? "

" Will I sleep ?"

Every question, every "what if " raced through my mind each day,
everyday leading up to Cole's arrival.

This time, I am patient!

I find myself truly enjoying this pregnancy on a whole different level.

Maybe a more experienced level?! Maybe a more expecting level?! Maybe more appreciative for the ultimate outcome.

Being pregnant with Cole, every experience was new, and it was entering the unknown.
I had never felt nausea from being pregnant.
I never knew what it was like to have a craving for something that I would cry if I couldn't have it - like Taco Bell!
I had never felt a baby move inside of me.
I had never seen my belly big, and I couldn't wait to see what I would look like sporting the "baby belly!"
I had never seen a creation that was made by both Paul and I together.

All of those things I have now experienced.

This time around, its not any less exciting, or thrilling. Its just simply wonderful. I don't really find myself counting down the days nor do I wish for it to pass quickly.

In fact, the other day I couldn't remember if I was 18 weeks, or 19 weeks.

The other side to this "wonderful" - is a piece of the "unknown" I have recently entered.

As I watched Cole color a couple days ago, I thought to myself " How am I ever going to let you go? How am I going to be okay with you becoming a man?"

Call it hormones, call it crazy! But the thought of my baby boy going off into the world, becoming a man, fending for himself.. ::SIGH::

-If I could only put you back inside of me, and keep you there forever. Where no one can hurt you. Where no one can break your heart. Where you are safe- always.

Yes people, these were my psycho thoughts. Putting my child back inside of me. Only so I can protect him!

Later that day I changed Cole's diaper, and after each changing he has learned to say " thank you." Well, he did just that, and I asked for a kiss. As he kissed me I said " I grew you, never forget it!"

Whoa - where did that come from? Am I truly turning into a psycho Mom. Is this the reason why I am not so anxious for my daughter's arrival this time around - because I want to keep her inside of me forever?

Is there a medication for crazy?

This week I have felt my anxiety go from a steady,
normal 2 ---to a 15.
( On a scale of 1 - 10.)

My heart races, I can feel my blood pressure rise, my neck gets red hot. All of these things will happen at the slightest thought of ..

Cole possibly tripping on his untied shoe laces. So I constantly look to make sure they are tied - tightly.

Cole becoming a professional hockey player. Which means he would have to travel. Which means he would have to fly. Guess he isn't going to be a hockey player. Or do anything that entails traveling.

This is the range of psychotic "what ifs" that have been racing through my mind.

Deep Breaths Sheena. Deep, long, slow breaths.

I hope this is hormones, and something I will soon overcome. I hope this will be something to giggle at later. I hope this will soon pass.

My Mother was a " worry wart." In fact, I would tease her when she would get angry with me for being "ignorantly easy-going."

" Well Mom.." I would say . " Why would I worry when you worry for the both of us."

Am I becoming my "worry wart " Mother?

Don't get me wrong. If I am half the woman my Mother was, I will be great! But the "worry wart" part - I can leave that at the curb.

Will Savannah be " ignorantly easy-going" - which leaves me "psychotically crazy about LIFE?"


Xanax, cocktail, cigarette? ----- AnYoNe?

Oh yes, I'm pregnant.. and I want to stay pregnant with my child forever so that "Life" can never harm her.

So she can't fall and accidently hurt herself because her shoe came untied.

So she can never crash in a airplane.

.. and God, if possible, stick my son back in there so non of the above can happen to him. Please!!!!

Breath In. Breath Out.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Cole Meets " Great " Grandma and Grandpa Montgomery

Today was a special day.

Today Cole met his great Grandma and Grandpa Montgomery.

Our visits through the years have been far and few between since they live in Tracy, CA. I plan on fixing this though =)

It was such a wonderful visit. I was able to have a really nice chat with my Grandfather. I learned so much from our family and its history. I hope that we have many more chats like this in the near future.

~ Grandma and Grandpa ,
This visit was so special, and we are so happy and appreciative you were able to come down our way so we can have some good quality time with you both. Grandpa, that chat was so meaningful to me, more then you will ever know. Your strength and perseverance is admirable. I am so proud to call you my Grandpa! We love you guys, and can't wait to see you again!

18 Week Anatomy Check

Today was our Anatomy check. I'm elated to report that everything with our little girl looked "perfect."

Two arms - check

Two hands - check

Ten fingers - check

Two legs - check

Two feet - check

Ten toes - check

Her brain and head are measuring perfect.

Both kidneys are present and in full function.

Blood flow through her spine is flowing beautifully.

Her heart has all four chambers and is pumping just as it should.

Vagina - check!

It was confirmed by two different doctors. ( Three including our OB/GYN ) -- Of course this was upon Paul's request.

The first doctor greeted us with a friendly " Hi, How are you all doing today?"

Paul's response was " Well if you tell me that my daughter is actually in fact a son, I will divorce my wife and marry you."

" Gee, nice to meet you." Was her quick response accompanied with a giggle. She squirted my belly with jelly, and there we began our ultra sound.

Within seconds, as Paul watched the big screen, she punched in
" g - i- r- l >>>>"
Of course the arrows were pointing right to her "goods."

She magnified her vagina by 10x ---- and said
" Well Dad, guess no divorce for you!"

By much surprise, instead of Paul turning with a quick and smart response - he stood in awe as he watched his baby girl on the screen for the very first time. He quietly said " guess not."

Unlike Cole, Savannah is very calm. Cole was a kicker, a puncher, he turned and flipped, and constantly kept me awake with his action.

It seems the bigger our girl gets, the more relaxed she becomes. Every once in a while I will get a punch or kick, but nothing that is constant. While we watched her, she was very shy - sucked on her hand, rubbed her eyes, opened her mouth, and kicked back at the doctor when she pressed a little to hard on her comfort.

She is currently 8 oz and is measuring at 12 inches from head to toe. She is right on track.

It was a great visit. I think the reality of Paul having a daughter was not only confirmed for the third time, but it has actually set deep within his heart.

Oh, and I have officially hit my half way mark. =)

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Family Time

Believe it or not, today was our very first visit to the park as a family. The weather has been beautiful this week, so we took full advantage.

We packed a couple of chairs, some snacks, our good pal " Nikon" and headed to the park. Since Daddy joined us,
Mom was able to capture some very special moments!!!

Friday, February 12, 2010

"Here you leave today and enter the world of yesterday, tomorrow, and fantasy."

Two whole days at Disneyland!

We packed our bags and headed to the famed theme park on Friday where we checked in at the Disney hotel. We spent the evening going from ride to ride, ate every treat offered, and enjoyed every expression, laugh, and giggle the kids played out as their imagination soared!

Close to 9pm - we headed back to the hotel where the real fun began!!!! The kids bathed together, watched Elmo, and colored. It was thrilling to watch the two interact and enjoy eachother's company.

They enjoyed eachother so much, that bright and early the next morning they couldn't wait to start the fun again. They both ran out calling " Grandma, Grandpa! "

We had a amazing time - Thanks Mom and Dad. Jess and I are so lucky to have such wonderful in-laws who constantly and consistently show your unconditional love to us all. You gave us the opportunity to make such wonderful memories we will forever cherish. We love you.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

Belly Shot

Here we are ~ at 17 weeks and one day!

Cole's curiosity and excitement is growing right along with Savannah.

Uncle Michael saw that we were taking some belly pictures, and wanted to join in the fun. He swore his was bigger, but I didn't think so!!! Maybe you'll win next round Michael!!!

Are You Ready for Some Football?

Since the Packers or the Eagles weren't in the Superbowl this year, it wasn't too exciting to watch the famed annual game. Since its always a great excuse to have a party ~ thats what we did.

Papa and Mimi hosted the event, and put on a delicious array of what Cole calls "yummies." ... and Mommy won $50 bucks in the pool. Whooo Hooo =)

It was a great party, can't wait for next years!

Saturday, February 06, 2010

Sugar, Sugar, Sugar

One of my favorite memories living on 248th Street in good ol' Lomita was hearing the ice cream truck. It would come at the same time almost everyday. Although my Mom didn't allow us to buy a treat from Mr. Wall everyday, I would still get excited hearing that traditional song every ice cream truck plays.

It was a few days after Paul and I moved into our home together, that I first heard that same song echo through our neighborhood. I anxiously ran to the window where I saw all the kids form a line, pointing to what they wanted to buy.

Here are some pictures I took of Cole and Ben, enjoying their very own treats from that same truck I heard years ago. I can't wait for Cole to be able to recognize the song when Mr. Ice Cream comes driving down our street.

Thursday, February 04, 2010

Visiting VoVo

We decided to make a trip up to Fresno to have some good quality time with Cole's VoVo. It was a great time to make the trip since we were able to watch Jessica play her very last high school soccer game, and celebrate Ashley turning the big "21!"

Til next time Vovo and Boujikian Family~~