I will never forget the feeling I felt when I read pregnant for the very first time.
We had been back from our honeymoon for over three weeks, and it was no secret Paul and I wanted babies right away!
Another feeling I will never forget?
When I kissed his lips for the very first time!
When I breathed in his skin and soaked in the noises he was making. Seeing his hands and feet. Knowing he and every other part of him, grew inside of me.
Getting his hair cut for the big day.
sister felt left out, so we cut her's too. Just a little!
I knew this day would come. But what I didn't realize was how fast it would meet us.
choosing his backpack!
I feel like I just put away the groceries I bought, preparing to be going in that night to be induced.
Another thing I didn't know at the time was I would have him only a couple hours later!
We let him sleep with us that night. And I cuddled him as close as I possibly could.
I woke up almost every hour through the night, dreading for morning to come.
This is one of those moments I feel like I'm cupping water in my hands,
doing all that I can to keep there.
Right there in my palms.
But no matter how hard I squeeze my hands and fingers together,
the water disappears.
I've never been so aware of the moment.
I've never been so aware of the mean, mean fact that...
...Time flies ...
And it flies quickly. And no matter who you are, time shows no favors. No compassion. No freebies.
Although growing hurts, it brings new seasons. New challenges. New experiences and memories.
Wow, was this kid brave.
He walked in like he owned it. Like he'd been doing it for years. Like he belonged.
And I was so proud.
My first born.
The one who made me Mommy.
Your smile lights up this world. Your laughter is food for my soul.
Your spirit is strong and brave.
Here was another of your many firsts.
I love you, my son.
Our hearts are one forever.