I will never forget the feeling I felt when I read pregnant for the very first time.
We had been back from our honeymoon for over three weeks and it was no secret
Paul and I wanted babies right away!
Another feeling I will never forget?
When I kissed his lips for the very first time!
When I breathed in his skin and soaked in all the noises he was making. Seeing his hands and feet. Knowing he and every other part of him, grew inside of me.
Getting his hair cut for the big day.
Sister felt left out, so we cut her's too...just a little!
I knew this day would come.
But what I didn't realize was how fast it would meet us.
Choosing his backpack!
I feel like it was only yesterday that I walked aisle through aisle at the grocery store...
... the last shopping trip I would take solo, the last one I would take before I became a Mommy.
I envisioned everything I picked up and placed in my basket,
being used by all the family and friends that would visit us those first days at home.
Fast forward four, short years later...
The night before this day was brutal.
We let him sleep between us. I knew in my heart that after this day, he would forever be changed.
He would meet new people and make friends.
He would be exposed to things I wouldn't be there to protect from seeing and hearing.
He would fly!
I woke up almost every hour, soaking in all of his four year old noises he makes while he sleeps... Breathing in his sweet breath that still smells like... baby!
I selfishly dreaded for morning to come, but this guy - he couldn't wait!
Never in my life have I ever been so aware of ' the moment. '
Nor have I ever been so aware of the mean, mean fact that...
...Time flies ...
And it flies quickly. And no matter who you are, time shows no favors. No compassion. No freebies.
Although growing hurts, it brings new seasons. New challenges. New experiences and memories.
Wow, was this kid brave.
He walked in like he owned it. Like he'd been doing it for years. Like he belonged.
And I was so proud.
My first born, the one who made me Mommy.
Your smile lights up this world. Your laughter is food for my soul.
Your spirit is strong and brave.
Here was another of your many firsts.
I love you, my son.
Our hearts are one forever.