Saturday, January 26, 2013

being present

I keep promising myself that I'll be better at blogging my personal stories... 
That I'll do it more often, the way I use to! 

It has been so hard for me to bounce back into our pre-holiday routine. 
The routine that involved the gym and a daily game plan on how I'll attack 
all of my responsibilities and still be sane before dinner and bath time. 

I've failed, horribly. 

More specifically, this last week has been our worse so far! 

Runny noses, horrible chest coughs, and tired eyes required us to 
lock up the house, stay in pjs all day, all week---- and watch 'Tangled' and the newest 'Ice Age'
over and over and over.

It was the perfect recipe for a 'Mama breakdown' that happened somewhere 
between Thursday morning and Thursday night... 
When we found out Daddy would be working again on Friday, Saturday, and possibly Sunday.

The ugly, gloomy, rainy weather didn't help at all!

No school for Cole. 
No gym for Mama. 
Locked up in the house with rainy weather. 
Not seeing Daddy ALL week. 

Yes, I melted. 
I broke. 

I cried. 
and I yelled... 
a lot!

In fact, I really hated myself this week. 
I was the Mommy I swore I'd never be.

 Friday, while Daddy was at work... 
I asked Nannie who she wanted to be for the day.
Since she was Minnie the day before... 
It was Bell's turn! 
I made coffee. 
I kept the TV off. 
I practically overdosed on Delsum and made sure to keep cough drops in arms reach. 

In the wake of the New Year was an opportunity for new beginnings. 
A universal ( kind of ) time when everyone sets goals and aspirations and resolutions.
My main goal/resolution was to be better. 
To be present. 
To be organized so I can be present. So far...I've been neither. 
Another resolution was to be forgiving of myself. To know that not everything is in my control and to roll with the punches. Like catching a really bad cold. Like rainy weeks. Like Daddy working late nights and not seeing him for four days straight and being told that the possibility of him not being home through the weekend may very well happen... 
Putting a smile on my face and rolling into dinner and bath time solo for the 6th night in a row after feeling like death is knocking on my door because I'm coughing hard enough to feel like I'm a cough away from hacking up a lung. Maybe both lungs!

Those resolutions and goals and aspirations took a backseat so the scraping by without going totally insane took passenger to me trying my best to just get through the day. If any of that makes sense. I'm not too sure it does... but if you're a Mommy you totally get it!

Daddy made an unexpected appearance...
 Friday. 
Around lunch time. 
Groceries in hand, and orange tulips. 
And he's home as I type. And its Saturday.
Because of the rain I've complained about for the last 5 or 6 almost paragraphs!


Resolutions, goals and aspirations are great. They're great to make and have. 
And its even better if you have the follow through to see them through. 
But then there's life. 

There's the reality that sometimes... sometimes you just gotta roll with the snotty noses and the delsum and the fact that you're solo on this parent train, and thats ok. 

This morning I woke up with the company of having my second half present. 

I checked my email, bank accounts, paid a few bills, started this blog post and editing the pictures you see here. 
 I sent a text to a couple of friends asking if they could join us for dinner tonight and started to look at some recipes of what I wanted to make for dinner.
And right smack in the middle of it, my Nannie Bear grabbed my hand and mumbled what I knew was 'Come, follow me! ' 
Hand in hand she led me to a game where it was 'boys against the girls.' 
It was Nannie Bear and Mommy vs. Cole and Daddy. 
It was a foosball game where we laughed and cheered and booed eachother. 
With every shot and goal Cole made on his own where he held his arms up and yelled
"YYYYEEEEEEAAAAHHHHH!'

I was present. And it was good. 


My floors are dirty. I have loads of laundry to catch up on and a list of things to do this week since this last week which happened to be the last one of the month, was spent hacking up my lungs ( literally ) and yelling from the couch. But, we move through it. We push forward. We forgive ourselves and realize that although we are now moving into the second month of the year and we've failed at accomplishing the goals we set only four weeks before... 
We haven't failed. 
Those goals just haven't been accomplished yet. And thats ok. 
What I have accomplished though... 
Forgiving myself. Being honest. And being present. 

We're off to pour a couple of Mimosas. Prepare for tonights dinner with some good friends. 
And be present in it all. 

I'd typically ask you to stay tuned for a future post. 
My newest resolution. 
Take a day at a time. 

So with that and the resolution of being honest... 
I have no idea when my next post might be. 

For now, 
Cheers to being present!


....and Happy Weekend my friends!
















Friday, January 18, 2013

My Favorite Photo of 2012

I recently joined a Photographer's Forum called 
" Rock The Shot."

It is the first forum I've paid to be apart of... and I will tell you why! 

I fell in love with the story of the forum's founders, 
Karlen Kleinkopf and Laura Thomas. 
The forum's simplicity and easy accessibility to it's tutorials, conversation boards, and the welcome feeling everyone gives you, whether they've been a photographer for 20+ years or not, has been great.
The support. The everything about this site, is awesome for photographers.


Rock The Shot has challenged it's members to choose ONE image from 2012,
and submit it as their favorite.

Its taken me close to two weeks to narrow down my top three.

I wanted this image to represent me not only as a photographer,
but to represent the most important part of my life...
Being 'Mommy.'

2012 was a big year for me.
As a woman, as a wife, a Mommy, and of course, as a photographer.

This choice... was a big one.

This image tells the story of my journey in 2012.

You see, I went out with my babies on a warm March day with the hopes that I would take
pictures I wanted to use for my very first "Spring Mini Session" offer.

I found the perfect yellow dress for my Nannie,
 and blue checkered hat for Cole.

I brought bubbles and the vision I saw in my head...
I was determined to make it come to life through my lens.

It was the exact opposite. 

Cole and Savannah fought.

They didn't want to touch eachother.
But wanted to roll down the green, rolling hills!
( Yellow and grass stains aren't ideal, and wasn't what I envisioned! )

The bubbles didn't work...
Which lead to tears and stomping up and down with screaming demands...
    " I     WANT     BUBBLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "

At one point, I sat there and cried.

Like a baby.
Like a pouting, three year old child!
I screamed " FINE... WE WONT DO PICTURES. JUST GO AND RUN!"

The --tear filled-three year old like tantrum--
 continued for several minutes after.

My tears eventually cleared and I sat there and watched ...

My babies run, laugh, and chase one another.
Their deep, belly laughs made me giggle...

And then, I picked up my camera. 

( this is the submission for Rock The Shot's challenge. )

This was my lesson.

This was my discovery of allowing natural moments unfold... naturally. 

Because those... those genuine, caught in the moment, nothing but pure happiness-kind of moments,
are the best ones! 




www.rocktheshotforum.com


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Cheers to photography, Mommy-hood, and capturing great moments!











Tuesday, January 15, 2013

W Family; Maternity

This girl happens to be a very good friend of mine. 

'soul sister!'

Random fact... 
We met through a boy that we both liked. 
Got rid of the boy, and kept eachother!

She, her husband Jon, and gorgeous son Finn are expecting Briley next month. 

Wilson Family, 
Love all of you. I can't wait to meet your girl. 

.enjoy.


 This was a maternity session in Torrnance, California
To schedule your Maternity Session, email 
swilkinsphotography@gmail.com
We believe here at SWP, that every little or big moment is worth photographing, 
and freezing in time. 
'Taking little moments, and making them last forever!'



Friday, January 11, 2013

Welcome to the North Pole

Inspired by one of my favorite bloggers, ever! 

I was inspired to host a " North Pole Party." 

A party centered around of course, the North Pole and the magic it brings. 

The magic of make believe, and Santa, and his reindeer. 

The hours leading up to this party, it was all Cole could talk about. 

His friends coming over...
in their jammies. 
All to get ready for Christmas Eve. 

It was magic. 

It was simply wonderful. 


Welcome to the North Pole!





Tonka is in that stage... 
You know the one where she's just happy to have found her voice... 
The stage where she dances all the time, loves icecream, and has realized she has the power to ruin a good moment for her brother.
 ( Insert the face where there's a straight line for where the smile should be, here! )
 Like this .. 

=/

Days are pretty rough around here. 


But... 

Cole has hit the stage where he soaks in everything. 

He asks really cool questions, and gets excited about parties and presents!

This party was all he could talk about days after. 

Even after Christmas. 

=)

So when Paul kept asking " why are we doing this again?" 
And had the kind of face where if I let him speak it out loud, he would say ... 

" Once again, over extended yourself" .. 

At the end of the party... 

Paul answered his own question. 

I think this might be a day that this guy.... 
will never forget!

And yes, smily face again, please!

=) 








Thursday, January 03, 2013

The Lewis Family

This family has a special place in my heart. 

Not only because they are really good friends....

But... 

Did you know they were SWP's very first paying clients?! 

A year ago, I bought my Canon 7D and created Sheena Wilkins Photography. 

Mike called and asked if I would take their pictures while their oldest daughter was in town. 

I was thrilled to take their pictures. 

And a year later... he asked me the same question. 

Returning clients is the biggest compliment you can give a photographer! 

Lewis Family, 
Thank You for believing in Sheena Wilkins Photography. 
Thank You for being such a great friends. 
Thank You for everything! 
Love you all!

***
This was a portrait session in Torrance, California
Email swilkinsphotography@gmail.to schedule your portrait session today! 
I'd love to get you and your family in front of my camera. 
Cheers!